I have had a mostly beautiful and calm day. I think some of it is due to some things that have been stressing me out recently finally feeling at ease. I have felt anxious and worrisome about finances and baby possibilities (or lack thereof; ie our frosties) and just general stress with the two huge blessings that I do have. I have felt like a bad mother, an ungrateful wife and a stinker of a person in the last couple weeks. But after a brief cry with the hubby and some guilt over stress being hopefully resolved last night I woke up with a calm today. A gratitude for my blessings and finally the non-urgency to figure out all the questions in my life right this minute.
It is fast approaching Christmas and by golly I want to enjoy every minute and moment of special with my girls and family. I hope the positive feeling sticks around...heaven knows the holidays are stressful. But for now I am very happy with my family of four and feel like I should show more gratitude for that blessing. Not even three years ago I wasn't certain that I would ever be blessed with a child and here I am today blessed with two girls who are more than I ever wanted (sometimes more than I think I can handle with all their spunk and personality). They are what is important in the here and now and the forever. I write this so that in stressful days when this calm isn't as easy to find that I can remember.
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What a lovely reminder to yourself. It's hard to feel grateful 24/7, and life does wrap us up in little cyclones of stress. Don't be too hard on yourself about it :)
Wishing you and your family a Merry Christmas.
Thank you for all the support you have given me this year, lovely woman.
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