We have our transfer set for 7:45 am tomorrow. We are hoping that it works and that one little embryo sticks around. We would take two for sure but we are hoping for just one still. We won't know the expected success rates until we arrive and talk to the doctor. There are 3 blastocysts in this straw but since they were frozen prior to the vitrification technology being at our lab it is very unlikely they will all survive the thaw. We hope that two will survive and be strong contenders. The nerves and reality still don't seem to sink in yet. We are so blessed to have this opportunity to try though. So very grateful that we have been blessed so greatly so far and hope that maybe we can get lucky one more time.
We received word from our hopeful recipient couple and as we somewhat expected they are desirous to try for a pregnancy on their own, at the advice of their doctor. He believes that the chemical pregnancy may "jump start" her system into remembering what it is supposed to do and advised them to try on their own without IVF for the next 4-6 months. If it were us in their shoes I'm sure that we would be doing the same thing so it was easy enough to understand. I am hopeful for them but at the same time the words "jump start" and such sounded a lot like the hope I was given with my POF diagnosis and the suggestion of doing birth control to remind my body of it's purpose and they have been trying for 6 years until this point. I wonder if they will be successful. Maybe we'll never know. We've basically left it with the statement that we will be waiting to consider our donation options again until this cycle ends or until a later time in a pregnancy if it is successful. We will be looking at other couples and options once we feel confident in our decision to do so. If time goes on and we do find ourselves at the end of their time frame still looking for a resolve with a match then we are both okay with reconnecting and completing what was put in motion and has now been halted.
It is disappointing in that I think we both really liked this couple and felt comfortable in the prospect of donating to them. But on the other side it doesn't feel like a great loss but perhaps even a comfort in that if we do get attached to the idea of a child and this cycle isn't successful that we can still pursue another round. Jeff laughs at me with this idea but I don't think we'll know how we feel until the results are in. I was originally okay with moving on with our girls but now given this possibility back (and the beyond gracious funding of this cycle by my parents) it isn't completely off the table for us to try again sometime after the holidays.
I still hope beyond hope that this will just work this time and to not be disappointed but only the next couple weeks will tell. And then the weeks to follow after that if necessary as well.
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