It always kind of surprises me how much even the subject of infertility in the media hits home for me. My husband and I have been watching How I Met Your Mother on NetFlix (at the long recommendation of our friends) and once we got over how annoying the main character can be and how funny the others are it's been pretty good. Well (spoiler alert) we are in the current season 7 now and just watched the episode where Robin "accidentally" found out she is infertile and will never have kids. Watching the scene where she meets with the doctor to hear this news was like flashback feeling for me. I felt emotional for her character and also remembering our own meeting with the doctor 5 years ago. In the episode she is telling this story to her future children and then you find out half-way through they are her imaginary children because she never has children. I don't know it was just sad to see her dealing with it while her best friend, Lilly, is pregnant and baby shopping. The episode got over and I just said to Jeff "well that sucked" and we joked a little about how Robin should learn more about donor egg, donor sperm or adoption and still have kids if she wants. We still have the season and series (when they get to it) to finish and now I find myself routing for my second to least favorite character on the show to end up with a happy ending.
I know it shouldn't surprise me but it always does the emotional gut reaction I have when I watch these sort of shows or hear these stories. It really is true that infertility can be like PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) and that things just trigger those emotions all over again. I wonder if it ever really goes away.
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It is so true....infertility leaves such deep emotional scarring...I still can't believe I am a mommy finally and I am sitting here feeding one of the twins lol xxx
It is true. Even running into it after having kids is strange. Like when her future kids vanished and it said she never became a mom...that was the saddest part to me. I am always so grateful for our girls but never forget how we got here.
I agree. I do think IF can be like PTSD. I still wake up with an anxiety attack reliving THAT moment in the Dr's office. I don't think it will ever leave me. Even with my beautiful little girl it still rips me open. ;(
Agreed...I'm sure it's the same for many traumatic things. You just can't sink those anxiety and sad feelings all the way even with the happiest of turn-around.
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