What's with all the excitement...

I don't know if it's just me or it just hasn't sunk in yet. I feel excited to myself and with Jeff sometimes but in general I'm not all that excited or eager to share our news. I still don't even really feel pregnant for the most part. I haven't been sick (thank goodness) and I haven't been really hungry or tired. Basically life hasn't really changed. Don't get me wrong I'm still known to frequent our online newspaper for baby stuff (primarily looking at cribs). But in general I keep it to myself.

Part of me thinks it is because we are having twins and I know that with twins there will be more questions and possible assumptions made. I'm not really sure how to answer questions. I'm fine with people knowing or thinking we had some help...but I don't know if I should be forthcoming with that or wait til they ask. I'm not fine with telling everyone the donor aspect. I don't really think that's my information to share and I think that the kiddos should know and understand this more before I share it. I guess I still just want time to adjust to it and think things through before I go spilling things.

I worry about hurting feelings too. I think that is the part of infertility and pregnancy that I didn't know would come together so much. I don't have a desire to blab on Facebook (maybe pictures when they are born) but no status updates or such. I don't really care to go around announcing it to all my friends. I really just want to tell family and close friends. And as for close friends I'm still nervous to tell one but know that I will need to soon before I start showing. I haven't even told my siblings. Man and here I thought I was going to be a bragger HAHA...shows you how much I knew.

I am excited and I'm very grateful and I do look forward to the rest of the pregnancy and parenthood. But right now I'm just enjoying having this be something that isn't wide spread news. We'll see how long that lasts.